Vaccines Vs Autism

It's Sunday. In our household, we eat breakfast, do our weekly Sunday deep cleaning, and then pie out for the rest of the day. During Addy's morning nap, I picked up a book that I had bought at Dollar Tree for a buck. Jenny McCarthy Mother Warriors. I remember the only reason why I even picked it up was because I was genuinely curious about her autistic child and wondered if it was anything like the autistic kids I used to work with at a previous job. That, and it was a buck. I had no idea when I purchased the book, that it had anything to do with vaccines and its possible correlation with Autism. I had no idea there was even a controversy over Vaccines Vs. Autism. So, naturally, I went through a series of emotions. My kids have been vaccinated... Did I hurt them by having them vaccinated? Should I continue vaccinating? I felt guilty for not even looking into it. Rowen will be 4 in March and he has had every single vaccine "required." How could I have ignored the possible side effects of the injections my children were getting? I didn't even look into it. Not once did I even research it. I just helped them hold him down so they could stab him with needles. Now I'm doing it for Addison. I felt stupid, feel stupid, for being so "brainwashed." Every one I know  gets regular vaccines and did growing up as well. I did, my siblings did, my husband did. Aunts, Uncles, Cousins... everyone. How many of them have actually looked into the effects? I don't know. Maybe all of them, including myself, fell into the "norm" of getting vaccinated because, "everyone else is doing it."
Now, I find myself glued to my computer, looking for answers.
In the midst of it all, I'm still not sure if I will continue to vaccinate my children or not. I'm still battling with my own beliefs after this butt load of knowledge has smacked me in the face. I do know, that I feel  guilty for not even taking a second look at what doctor's have injected into my son's body for the last 3 1/2 years and now my daughter, for the last 7 months. Luckily, my children are fine.
As for this book...
This book has really opened my eyes. Yes, millions of people get vaccinations regularly and don't become Autistic. But not everyone is the same. In fact, everyone is completely different. The same vaccinations are given to every child, as if every child is the same. This book is filled with several testimonies of moms across the universe who truly believe that routine vaccinations hurt their children and made them severely ill. They can pinpoint when their child "disappeared." All of them are after their children had shots at a well baby check up. They lost their ability to speak, point, imitate, sense of balance, and then eye contact.
How frightening?
It's not just vaccinations that are believed to cause Autism. Some believe it's genetic and some believe environmental factors are to blame. What I didn't know is that Autism isn't necessarily just a mental disorder. Children suffering from Autism often are extremely ill with horrible diarrhea, up to 10 times a day! As well as problems digesting foods, colon problems, and multiple allergies. There's a symptom called the Leaky Gut and I don't even want to get into that. ;(
I've also learned that "The Center for Disease Control and the American Academy of Pediatrics are filled with doctors whose research, speaking engagements, and travel are often funded by the manufacturers of vaccines.  Many of these same doctors are paid consultants, and some later go to work full-time for the pharmaceutical industry."- Straight out of the book. What do you think of that?
The book later goes onto recovery and the cure for Autism. A lot of people believe there is no cure. A lot of people believe there is. Through behavioral therapy, diet, supplements, and other biomedical interventions,. children are being un-diagnosed by the same doctor who diagnosed them with the disorder in the beginning.
The AAP and the CDC refuse to believe this is true, even though children around the world are recovering from that very treatment. Why would companies, such as these absolutely refuse to believe any evidence indicating that sick children are being treated?

okay... i'm done venting. READ THE BOOK. seriously. do it.